we shared the kava in the dimming light
my lips went numb
our lips were numb
you said you loved it while I choked and stuttered
can we go home?
this tastes like bark and death

oh I’d rather stay inside
and stare at you
and see you as the boy I met three
years ago! But now I know that you love her
and you’ll talk to God
to make your life a foreign film

we shared a silence in the arcade light
my hands went numb
weren’t we forever?
no, I should have seen this coming
cause you’re sensitive
and you’re writing screenplays

let’s abandon this disaster
let’s escape, let’s love ourselves
I was waiting for disaster
while you only looked at yourself

oh we were chasing a high
from an english classroom,
buses, beaches, gingerbread but
you told me “we’re all just actors”
there’s no blood beneath my skin
but you’re the one who’s lying

let’s abandon this disaster
let’s escape, let’s love ourselves
I was waiting for disaster
while you only looked at yourself

let’s abandon this disaster
let’s escape, let’s love ourselves
you said “we’re only actors”
why’d you always look at yourself?

why’d you always think of yourself?
I was right here to love you
maybe all we are is selfish
but I still waited all night for you

(we’re only selfish
let’s love ourselves)

another parking lot
another hug goodbye
will I ever see your face again?