Sunday, it's 3:30 babe I stare at the ceiling while you talk at me on Fridays, we're acting in love so can we pretend that I'm inside your head? so what do you want from this? Friday, you come back again what's bringing you back? I'm not inside your head "it's just that I'm here to feel loved" the acting is dumb, I do it anyway I make you uncomfortable what do I want from this? oh, do I need fake love to function? oh, do you need my mouth to sleep well? the weekends, the weekends what do we want from this? the weekends, the weekends do you need my mouth to sleep well? next weekend, next weekend I'll stare at the ceiling while you talk at me you must think you're interesting babe you'll never admit that she's got your head and will never take you back we continue on like this oh I hope the summer saves you oh I hope I don't hear from you the weekends, the weekends they'll haunt me either way the weekends, the weekends do you need my mouth to sleep well? I thought this would all make me proud but I sit on my bed, my head'll touch my hands on Sunday, with too much to do too busy to function or to talk to you, so I'd like to move on from this

You know I don’t stay out late But you’re here, so I might stay forever No, I’m fine with this You know I don’t do that shit But you say I need to forget I watch you take a hit I know I’m super lame, or whatever ‘do you wanna be here?’ no, but I, now I never tell the truth, but you know I think about it I wish I were you, everyone here seems to know you red lips and nowhere to go white wine and nowhere to stay red lips and nowhere to go white wine and nowhere to stay I never tell the truth, but you know I think about it I wanna use my youth, cause I know I’ll grow out of it You’re cool and that’s the truth, will you stick around and teach me To get slammed and maybe seen, everyone here seems to love you red lips and nowhere to go white wine and nowhere to stay red lips and nowhere to go trash wine and nowhere to stay you know sometimes I wish I could go back to high school, I dunno I figure I was happier then, at least I knew what I was about cause now I'm hanging out with vegans who still smoke cigarettes and I'm not quite sure what I'm trying to achieve I never wanted to give up on a Saturday but baby I wanted you, keep my weekends busy anyway You’re cool and that’s truth, but I never even knew you Just a type to get fucking lit, oh I didn’t need to know you red lips and nowhere to go red eyes and nowhere to stay red lips and nowhere to go red eyes and nowhere to stay Have I earned your love yet? It’s all for paper anyway to write home away So go ahead I’ll take a drink it’s rum and coke and I’m lost in universities

I swear I’ll never change but I will always keep up with you never make the second date always too preoccupied with youth, nothing else to do but you, let me talk to you I keep you up to date hoping I’ll hear back from you but you look away but you look away or right through, I’m a ghost to you haunting you, let me talk to you babe, our beauty’s gonna fade babe, it’ll matter to me if you stay lay me down next to you, though I’ll never see you after university I’ll watch you with her make me a victim of your youth it’s awful, no it’s fine I know I thought too much of you, nothing else to do idealizing you, let me talk to you but I’m typical at best climbing out of bed and getting dressed every day I’m nothing new waiting for the next time I’ll see you, but I’ll keep it cool following the rules, I’ll never talk to you babe, our beauty’s gonna fade babe, it’ll matter to me if you stay lay me down next to you, though I’ll never see you after university I went too far again I thought too far ahead I went too far again I thought too far ahead babe, our beauty’s gonna fade babe, it’ll matter to me if you stay lay me down next to you, though I’ll never see you after university

we shared the kava in the dimming light my lips went numb our lips were numb you said you loved it while I choked and stuttered can we go home? this tastes like bark and death oh I’d rather stay inside and stare at you and see you as the boy I met three years ago! But now I know that you love her and you’ll talk to God to make your life a foreign film we shared a silence in the arcade light my hands went numb weren’t we forever? no, I should have seen this coming cause you’re sensitive and you’re writing screenplays let’s abandon this disaster let’s escape, let’s love ourselves I was waiting for disaster while you only looked at yourself oh we were chasing a high from an english classroom, buses, beaches, gingerbread but you told me “we’re all just actors” there’s no blood beneath my skin but you’re the one who’s lying let’s abandon this disaster let’s escape, let’s love ourselves I was waiting for disaster while you only looked at yourself let’s abandon this disaster let’s escape, let’s love ourselves you said “we’re only actors” why’d you always look at yourself? why’d you always think of yourself? I was right here to love you maybe all we are is selfish but I still waited all night for you (we’re only selfish let’s love ourselves) another parking lot another hug goodbye will I ever see your face again?

I ruin it all

when you caught my eye we weren't different yet we played charades of indifference it's too soon to say oh, let's hang out all the time so I'll put aside my chemicals afternoons and I am barely sleeping last night we got wasted and talked interest chemicals in sight, we slurred and broke the silence how long should I ignore that they exist? have I been here before? now your skin and lips are on my mind blending with past lovers, what's the difference? I thought the next morning "this happens all the time" something in your eyes said nothing's new have you been here before?

I've noticed I stay up too late when I don't give a fuck you've only given me hell to date, wishing me worst of luck but I still stare at you though I have better things to do I have no one else to root for to pretend we'll have kids someday did I think so far ahead, after a half a month of London fog still on your lips, still staring at the eyes? you told me that you cared you said everything was fine but you had someone else to do while I waited and stared at you I kinda wanna kiss you, I kinda wanna fuck I kinda wanna deck you, I kinda wanna stay I love it when I see you with her, are you ever alone? You’re always moving on too fast, I’m finally alone but I can't blame you I kinda did the same but I wanted to love you and be caught in your whirlwind oh I kinda wanna kiss you, I kinda wanna fuck I kinda wanna deck you, I kinda wanna stay I never will forgive you I'll never let this go I never will forgive you I'll never let this go I kinda wanna kiss you, I kinda wanna fuck I kinda wanna deck you, I kinda wanna stay Did I think so far ahead after a half a month? How could I think so far ahead after a half a month?

I forgot the way you say goodbye Adam, I still wonder what’s ahead of you They say “you’ll be famous, you’ll be a star” Honest, though they call you baby, I agree You try to calm my earnest musings But, Adam, you will always love your muses Adam, I’m uncertain yet authentic String me along again and I stay true And I try to cling to these Fleeting moments when you breathe In time with me Once we lied and drove your car from them I watched the yellow lights, or were they stars It’s the blurry dark that makes you talk like this Leaving tokens with your empty loving words And I try to cling to these Fleeting moments when you breathe In time with me In time It’s cheap I know to dwell on throes It’s cheap to brood on what’s below It’s cheap I know to throw it all again It’s cheap I know to dwell on throes It’s cheap to brood on what’s below It’s cheap I know to throw it all against the wall

I will charm another with my messy hair and dried up lips More love than your mother, I crawl out of bed and take a drink Eating bread and butter, I know that I got boring But I'll claim another with my average smile and used up lips I know I got boring I was a phase

oh, the moonlight makes your hair look great I hold your halo in my hands you don't care for it we get up the next morning, faces look grotesque so in the end I guess we want this dead I guess that was two years ago but I don't move on there's no such thing as fun when you grow up maybe I could get lost in somebody's eyes that never changes anything though I think it will I don't wanna be another dead eyed student as I am you sleep much these days? I could dress in yellow and be someone's light, but I'm not I miss fascinations, I miss dooming dreams That I had for you Never alone But you took me to hell, still wondering what I did wrong so now I’m half awake building resumes I don't wanna be another dead eyed student as I am I don’t sleep much these days I could dress in yellow and be someone's light, but I'm not so tell me something wonderful that changes everything

I thought there would be more to say to you Before you broke in half But it’s useless to expect some final scene Like in the movies This won’t be the only day That you’ll forget my name Should I be keeping themes in mind while I play Where Are You Now? Where are you now? I won’t see you in the quiet, in the crowd Growing up doesn’t scare me anymore (I know it's pretty to say forever like in the movies) Promises so beautiful Forever’s just a phase This won’t be the only day That you’ll forget my name We’re not for a film score To be analyzed by the crowd We’re just two dumb kids who don’t know what they’re doing I thought there would be more to May Once you broke in half But it’s useless to lay down my final thoughts This is no movie

Maybe I’ll see you after work 2 years from now and it’s perfect an hour drive and it’s worth it, oh Could be your obligated roommate in your Portland apartment But I ruin it all and move to Montreal Sorry, I needed change I hope you stay the same Your whole life’s in front of you But I still don’t see you, no I still don’t see you Maybe I’ll see your face in pixels 2 months from now and it’s hopeless Why did we go and try this again? I see that you belong in the cosmos new albums and new changes I couldn’t keep up, so you say goodbye “Katy, you never change Sixes are all the same” Will we ever speak again? Will I ever see you, will I ever see you? Maybe I’ll see you in the valley 2 days from now with your family I forget what it's like to be out alone You see my growing concern We try our best to discuss it But we ruin it all and make out on the couch Oh, but you know things change and I love to stay the same I’d still wait it out for you when I never see you, when I never see you